MIMPI SEMALAM

Malam semalam, Nurul mimpi sesuatu yg meninggalkan nurul dgn penuh tanda tanya bila bgun. Nurul termimpi budak tu. Budak yg nurul kurang gemari di UUM la.. huhu.. Sebab ape nurul xsuka dia? Xnklah nurul cemarkan blog ni dgn kisah lalu yg nurul seriously dah lupe. Nk kata nurul jenis pelupe, katalah... Tp seriously, buruk org mmg nurul nak lupe. Buruk sendiri plak? Nurul cube perbaiki. Sebab tu nurul nk mula baru. Lagipun, yg dlm silibus nurul dah lupe apatah lagi pasal budak tu. Sebab tu nurul xnk tulis ape2 pasal budak tu di blog ni sebab nurul xnk baca balik n teringat pasal punca n ect.. Lagipun, semua2 cerita tu telah nurul delete.. Blog ni cume isi hati nurul.. Selalunya, ada la seseorg ni yg nurul selalu cerite. Tp semenjak dia gtaw yg dia xsuka dgr pasal budak tu dah, nurul hormat la keputusan dia yg minta nurul jgn sebut dah nm budak tu. Deleting all entries and starting a new blog was just one of my ways to forget about her.Even BP xnk nurul ingat lgsung pasal bnda tu n minta nurul jgn ungkit atau sebut lgsung pasal nm budak tu.. N dia pun nasihat nurul delete2 semua yg berkaitan ngan budak tu supaya nurul boleh lupe dgn cepat.. Nurul mmg cepat lupe ape nurul nk lupe.. Alhamdulillah, duk happy kat rumah xteringat lgsung. Memang nurul ni senang lupe kot lau benda2 xberfaedah. Nama kawan, website n ect. Kadang2 org lain yg tolong ingatkan. hehehe...Tp bla mimpi tu, tepikir balik.. Ape mimpi nak gtaw kat aku ni??

Ape nurul mimpi??

Nurul mimpi, nurul duk kat satu majlis ni.. Nurul duk ngan kawan2 nurul. Tiba2, terpandang budak tu duk ngan geng dia duk depan nrul. Nurul buat derk je duk hu-ha-hu-ha ngan kawan2. Tibe2, dia pusing n cubit tgn nrul.Kwn2 dia n kawan nurul xnmpak pun ape dia buat. Nurul buat muka pelik n still buat derk.. Maybe dia geram kot sebab nurul buat derk. Lepas tu, majlis tu habis. Nurul pun kuar ngan kawan2 nurul. Nurul kuar dr dewan tu dulu so nurul rasa dia duk belakang nurul. Lagi sekali dia cubit nurul. Masa tu memang bengang la.. Kali kedua. Memang tahan je la masa tu.. And then, gamak kot dia geram sebab nurul xbalas n wat derk, dia tolak nurul sampai jatuh,. Nurul pun bengang n bangun n mula marah dia. Tanya dia ape masalh dia. Ble plak dia ngan suara lembutnya kata, "eh eh.. aku buat ape?". Nurul pun mula bengang and kata "Ko boleh xjgn nk kcau aku.. nk cubit2 nk tolak2 wat ape? xde keje ke?".. Mmg puas hati nurul jerit kat dia. Dia ble xmengaku yg dia cubit2 n tolk nurul. Kawan dia yg setia giler tu plak mengaku je ape dia kata.. Punye la lagi boddoh! Lepas tu, salah satu kawan nurul(xknal sebab xnmpak muka), kata kat nrul. "Pandai dia pycho nurul. Nurul sabar je ek... Ataupun, pycho dia balik". Seriously, nurul dgar kawan nurul tu cakap ngan lembut, suruh pycho balik. Kawan2 yg len mcm wat derk je terhadap ape terjadi. Dia sorang je bg nasihat g2. Nurul pun wat mcm biasa. N kewujudan dia dlm mana2 majlis tak menyebabkan nurul tension. Nurul dalam mimpi tu sgtlah kuat and mmg pandai buat bodoh je terhadap budak tu. Budak tu tension n terkejut tgok nurul tak tension.Nurul lagi byk kawan n nurul xbuka mulut lgsung pasal buruk dia. Nurul ikut ape kawan nurul nasihat. Nurul lupe ape terjadi n mula baru. Dia wat mcm2 nk kasi nurul tension. Tendang nurul masa org xnmpak.. Tp nurul wat bodoh...Masa tulah nurul tekejut dari tidor ngan byk tanda soal... Nape ek mimpi gni?? xnk la mimpi lgsung pasal budak tu... tak berfaedah lgsung... Maybe Allah nk gtaw, yg budak tu mmg lah sgt hipokrit.. N minta nurul wat bodoh..  And yg peliknya, after "my friend" nasihatkan pycho balik. Nurul tak lawan tau. Nurul cume wat mcm biasa. Nurul xcubit pun dia. Nurul xtolak pun dia. Kesimpulannya, nurul xbalas dendam pun kat dia. I just move on with my life without her shadows behind me.I always pray, please Allah, give me strengh and guidance on what i should do.. Maybe, i just got the answer last night.. Lepas tu, few minutes later, boleh plak terjaga sebab azan subuh di laptop.

Sejak hal itu, mmg nurul rasa hilang byk kepercayaan kat ramai org tanpa sebab. Nurul dah pikir, xnak percaya kat org.. Org xfaham situasi kita. Dia kata nk tolong, pdhal dia mengeruhkan lagi.. Aduyai~ Haraplah org2 gni pupus...  Tak 100% yg kita sampai kat org ketiga akn sampai kat dia 100%.. Percayalah.. Org yg ambik edu-moral tahulah.. Please apply what you learn in your class ya.. Tu yang sekolah sekarang ada sivik, kt and kh.. jangan pikir subjek2 gni buang masa. Masa depan karang berguna sgt2..

N nurul nak highlight disini.. Di atas semuanya mimpi... Bukan nk kutuk2.. Bukan nak gtaw sape salah n sape betul.. I already forgotten all those nonsenses. And i want to state here that, next sem. The old Nurul is not going back to UUM. It wil be the new Nurul. Nurul yg don't care of others.And if and IF you have any problem, i maybe no longer be there to listen to you. For what? You were never around when i need you anyways so, you may please buzz off.  

Honestly said, i really lost all my trust towards some people in UUM.(dah stated twice, maknanya sgt2 serious la tu) 

Why?

They don't do me any benefit.. So, why must i be good toward them?? Sem depan, ingat nak macam sem 1 sebelum ni.. 

Next sem, what i want to do?

1. Don't trust people

2. Don't be a good listener to others. Though they might say bad things about other people, they still will be a good friend to the person that they badmouth... At the end of the day, u yg kena. pdhal, u have never bad mouth that person. What u do just listen kan? And then, mula imaginasi luar batasan. n org yg budak tu badmouth pun mesej bukan2 konon u takut n all. Padahal, dia tgah defend org yg kutuk2 dia sebelum tu. kesian giler.

3. No sympathy to the UUM colony. Because, they have nothing to do but bad mouth abt other people to make themself to look innocent. and the weird thing is, they are friends.. aduyai, lau xpuas hati tu, cube ckp straight.. xpyh la sampaikan kat org ketiga.

4. Don't judge people by other's judgement. At the end the day, the people who you thought were evil and not nice might the people who will help you when you were in trouble.

5. Pinggan jgn lupe basuh cepat2.. hehe.. and have your own utensils.. nanti org tu xhalalkan ape yg you borrow baru tahu.

6. Hutang bayar secepat mungkin. Don't pick a fight with someone that you owe money to. Maybe dia xhalalkan ke. Who knows?

7. Listen to your ex-roomate yg senior. Maybe she know people better. You might regret not listening to her.

8. Jangna tikam org dari belakang. Mind your own business and be nice to others. talk only necessary but not to make good friends.

9. Bersyukur ngan rezeki yg ALLAH bagi. 

10. Appreciate people who appereciate you! They might not always be around, but they always on time when you need them.

 11. Make friends who are mentally same as yours. The environment really build your character. So, never neglect this one. People just alwasy make judgement about others. BIla lah dwang nk buat judgement about themself.

12. Forget your ex yg selalu menyakitkan hati u.

13. Thankful for the people who are always around.. Jgn duk concetrate org yg depan mata je.. Yg duk kat belakang pun kena apreciate gak. they might the people you rely the best when the people who are infront of you not worth relying too.(this statement pening.. haha.. tp i pham)

14. Mop jgn sidai kat tmpat basuh baju. Kesian baju kawan kita kotor. hehehe

15. Sidai baju kat tmpat sendiri. Nnt ada la yg pandai2 susun balik baju kita sebab nk guna tmpat sidai baju.

16. Always bring your own pen.. huhu.. handphone xpnah tggal, pen ble plak..

17. Jgn perasan org suka kat u lau u yg actually suka kat dia.

18. Don't use people freely sebab dia ada kemudahan. Use your own kemudahan first.

19. Mulut kena jaga... remember what you say to people not only what people say to you. They might be reason for everything that happen.

20. Lastly, jaga tepi kain sendiri... Kain sendiri terkoyak nnt xsedar plak.. And the biggest you could ever make next is to perasan org lain jaga tepi kain u. Trust me.. It's funny once you think about it again and again.

So, next sem, i can no longer be the old Nurul ya.. I cannot look at you with both eyes without thinking that i hate you too much. Why i hate you? That answer already i threw it away along with all the friendship that we build and your pictures that was in my laptop. Your memories were no longer in the recycle bin waiting for it to be restore or deleted. I already delete it. There are no trace of you at all. Trust me.. All those editing pictures really takes time, but i'm done with it and very satisfied. And the perfumes set that i bought for you for your previous b'day, Alhamdulillah i xsempat bg kat u. If, i gave you before i could see your true colours, mmg la i regret. 

Thank You to budak edu-moral tu yg banyak bagi semangat kat nurul. Seriously, i really appreciate you. You(bukan edu-moral from my block. Would like to highlight here) really come to my life at the right time. I should have listen to you about them But no, i thought i know them better than you. As alway, you always right.. huhu.. why?? Maybe you are older than me and u apply what you learn in class. Thank God i have you as my personal counselor and listener..Same goes to you budak social science(not sure abt the spelling!)

i know, your group of friends might not stop talking about what i wrote in this blog. Macam dwang xde benda lain nk kisah. And mula la "sesi ganggu my life". They can never accept what they did wrong and they never learn from it. kat dunia bukannya kekal. So, i don't care. I choose to careless. Lagipun, this is my personal blog. So, i have all right to write whatever i right. Dah xsuka, pegilah report polis ke ape. Like i mind. And then, nk guna di atas sebagai bukti ke ape? NK simpati org ke. Please do. And i'll laught of your immature act ya. Yg busy body tu, you have nothing to do with what i'm going throught. Thank you for making me stronger k. Tak de keje gak kot, jd talam dua muka. N then judge. Phdal, you have nothing to do with it.

LASTLY, 

I can easily forget,

Don't be surprise,

I can forget you,

delete you,

why?

i am a risk taker with the support of some people and ALLAH of course,

so, jgn nk diungkit dah benda ni sem depan..

this will be my first and last entry about it in this blog,

I will start fresh,
and those yg tried to halang me from moving on, please get a life.

Watch out people!

Sekian terima kasih! hehehe..